Am I Enough

Do you ever wonder if you are enough? If you are doing your best? If you could be doing better?

I wonder this about myself on a daily basis. I think it is a natural thing to wonder if you are succeeding in what you set out to do. 

I want to succeed as a mother and raise happy and healthy children.

I want to succeed in my relationship and make my husband feel cared for everyday.

I want to succeed in my job.

I want to succeed in school.

There are many days where all I feel like a failure. Maybe my kids are unhappy, I didn't fix a clients issue, I hurt my husband's feelings, I didn't turn in my best work...In these times I feel very inadequate.

Then I have to remind myself of what I have accomplished.

I have raised (am in the process of raising) 3 children. They are polite, respectful, they listen, and love being with me and their dad.

I have experienced loss and not let it destroy me.

I have helped my husband through a cancer diagnosis.

I have walked my son through a cancer diagnosis.

I finished my bachelors degree and started my masters degree in the midst of it all.

I am enough. I may not be perfect, but I love deeply, work hard, and don't give up on those I love. 

I have an amazing husband who without whom I would have most definitely gone crazy by now. He helps me laugh, he reminds me that no matter what, I am loved, and he is a great provider and support  for our family.
I am enough. 

I am not perfect.
But I give it all.