Have you ever lost it? Ending up in a puddle of your own tears...I have...over and over again. It didn't always happen very often. But after awhile of being bombarded with "hard stuff" (to put it lightly) I find myself losing it more often. And over less and less serious things. My heart has been put through the shredder. With the help of time and healing from the Lord, it has mended...but not without some holes. Anxiety creeps up on me over the smallest things; finances, appliances breaking, things not going according to plan; and I find myself losing it. It is in these times I have to take a minute, take a step back, and really look at the situation. I first ask myself, do I have any control over this situation? After that, I give it ALL to God. Whether I have the power to change anything or not, I have come to realize that my worrying and anguishing over things is not going to change the outcome. Being calm, trusting that God will continue to provide what we NEED, and then doing what I have the power to do, that is all I can do. While I understand this, my first reaction is to lose it, even still...I guess that is proof that I am indeed human.
God has shown me time and time again that He will provide. And every time something else pops up; through our hard work, through others kindness, through the hands of our doctors; HE provides a way, HE provides a cure, HE provides.
This has become a favorite verse of mine...
Daniel 10:19 "Fear not beloved, you are safe. Take courage and be strong."
Oh my friend I have most certainly had my share of those moments. I I truly try to give them to God. Whatever is meant to be will be. It definitely helps to have good friends to talk to.
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